Words that punch you in the stomach
“We need to talk
..But not now.”
05-06-2014 © 6shadesofbitter.
Stop smiling at me like that
You’re all up in me
I can’t stay
But going isn’t an option either
When I decide to leave
You pull me back
When I decide to stay
You push me away
While you’re not pushing or pulling
You just sit there and let it happen
You’re in control of the strings
Attached to me
And you don’t even realize it
What is this trap you’ve caught me in?
23-02-2014 © 6shadesofbitter.
Be careful what you cook, Julius
The anger fills me up
The empty spaces are no longer empty
The missed parts are no longer empty
The broken pieces are no longer empty
As it fills me up I can feel everything in me changing
Changing in anger and hate
Yet I’m calm
Boiling and boiling and boiling
Can you give me something to cover this up?
Before I overcook
Ruin the stove
And we don’t want the stove ruined, now do we?
The lid is removed on purpose
But if you remove the lid
You have to understand that it gets messy
Who is going to clean up the mess?
It’s not me, as I am not me
03-09-2013 © 6shadesofbitter.
The dark room
Gasping in my ear
I can feel your heat
I can feel your heart
I can feel you sweating
Staring in your eyes
You staring back
By now you can hear the blood rushing through my veins
Your finger tips on my back
Slowly moving down my spine
Barely touching me
More gasping
Intimate
Like two becoming one
Your face touches mine
Cheek to cheek
Nose to cheek
Lips to cheek
Lips to lips
Can’t hold myself any longer
Bite your bottom lip
While I look at you
You can read my eyes
And I can read yours
05-06-2013 © 6shadesofbitter.
The lion awakens
Intense
The inner me wants to escape
I can feel it
The pressure against my body
The spirit is getting bigger than the packaging
Can I control it?
Should I control it?
Do I want to control it?
How long can I stop me from me?
05-06-2013 © 6shadesofbitter.
Complaining about complaining
Just another day at the office today. Another, miserable day at the office. Don’t get me wrong: it’s okay here. But the day is miserable. This is one of those days that make you wonder about why you’re actually doing what you’re doing. Does sitting here really make a difference for your future or for society? Does it really? I can’t see how it makes a difference. I don’t. For me it’s important that I’m here for my future. Read that literally: it’s important that I’m here. Because, really, my contribution is not that big. If I’d skip a day, it’ll look like a big deal, but it actually isn’t.
So I’m wondering, what should I do to make that difference for my future? To make a difference you need to work hard. And I don’t mean sitting behind your desk from 08.30h till 17.00h. That’s not working hard. Whoever claims it is, that’s just bullshit. Bull. Shit.
If you really want to make something of your life, you need to work hard. Sweat. Call. Travel. Beg. Convince.
We all know that, yet we settle for less. We settle for an office job and complain how miserable our lives are.
I guess that’s life until we burn up.
Here you have your knife back, you left it in my back
Thorn in my throat
Fist around my heart
Tears in my eyes
Lies in my ears
Betrayal through my veins
Hate in my brain
Just go away..
22-04-2013 © 6shadesofbitter.